{"id":66,"date":"2017-11-18T22:19:48","date_gmt":"2017-11-18T22:19:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/?p=66"},"modified":"2026-05-24T19:21:24","modified_gmt":"2026-05-24T19:21:24","slug":"bir-yenilgi-bir-yanilgi-bir-cirkin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/18\/bir-yenilgi-bir-yanilgi-bir-cirkin\/","title":{"rendered":"bir yenilgi, bir yan\u0131lg\u0131, bir \u00e7irkin."},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>bir an\u0131n i\u00e7inde kalmak ne kadar s\u00fcrer ? i\u00e7ti\u011fin biran\u0131n \u015ferbet\u00e7i otuna kadar iliklerinde hissetmek ne g\u00fczel \u015fey.<\/p>\n<p>4 dakikal\u0131k bir \u015fark\u0131da en sevdi\u011fin k\u0131s\u0131m ka\u00e7 saniye ? belki 30.<\/p>\n<p><em>dizgin etsem g\u00f6n\u00fcl at\u0131n; ge\u00e7er g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn yedi kat\u0131n.<br \/>\nyalan d\u00fcnya maslahat\u0131n; k\u00e2h biter, k\u00e2h bitmez \u00e7ektim.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>biriktirdiklerim, yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131.<br \/>\n\u00f6n g\u00f6r\u00fcm: \u00e7ok fazla ya\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n<p>azmetmedim, hazmetmiyorum.<\/p>\n<p>amasra, kas\u0131m 2017.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>kendimi buldu\u011fum bir \u015fark\u0131da tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131m. yeniden oynat\u0131p duruyorum.<br \/>\nbi gidip, bi geliyorum. ikilemler, risk ihtimalleri, duygusal kayg\u0131lar derken bildi\u011fin tuz ambar\u0131 gibiyim. her \u015fey k\u0131r\u0131k her yer d\u00f6k\u00fck. kendi i\u00e7imde konu\u015fmaktan, d\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131na pay kalm\u0131yor.\u00a0imkan var da mecal kalmad\u0131 sanki&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>nas\u0131l g\u00fczel \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum bazen; s\u00fcs \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi koklar gibi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>bir an\u0131n i\u00e7inde kalmak ne kadar s\u00fcrer ? i\u00e7ti\u011fin biran\u0131n \u015ferbet\u00e7i otuna kadar iliklerinde hissetmek ne g\u00fczel \u015fey. 4 dakikal\u0131k bir \u015fark\u0131da en sevdi\u011fin k\u0131s\u0131m ka\u00e7 saniye ? belki 30&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":197,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-66","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/66","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=66"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/66\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":213,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/66\/revisions\/213"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/197"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=66"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=66"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=66"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}