{"id":66,"date":"2017-11-18T22:19:48","date_gmt":"2017-11-18T22:19:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/?p=66"},"modified":"2026-05-25T11:52:23","modified_gmt":"2026-05-25T11:52:23","slug":"bir-yenilgi-bir-yanilgi-bir-cirkin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/18\/bir-yenilgi-bir-yanilgi-bir-cirkin\/","title":{"rendered":"bir yenilgi, bir yan\u0131lg\u0131, bir \u00e7irkin."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">bir an\u0131n i\u00e7inde kalmak ne kadar s\u00fcrer ? i\u00e7ti\u011fin biran\u0131n \u015ferbet\u00e7i otuna kadar iliklerinde hissetmek ne g\u00fczel \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">4 dakikal\u0131k bir \u015fark\u0131da en sevdi\u011fin k\u0131s\u0131m ka\u00e7 saniye ? belki 30.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><em>dizgin etsem g\u00f6n\u00fcl at\u0131n; ge\u00e7er g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn yedi kat\u0131n.<br>\nyalan d\u00fcnya maslahat\u0131n; k\u00e2h biter, k\u00e2h bitmez \u00e7ektim.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">biriktirdiklerim, yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131.<br>\n\u00f6n g\u00f6r\u00fcm: \u00e7ok fazla ya\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">azmetmedim, hazmetmiyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">amasra, kas\u0131m 2017.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">kendimi buldu\u011fum bir \u015fark\u0131da tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131m. yeniden oynat\u0131p duruyorum.<br>bi gidip, bi geliyorum. ikilemler, risk ihtimalleri, duygusal kayg\u0131lar derken bildi\u011fin tuz ambar\u0131 gibiyim. her \u015fey k\u0131r\u0131k her yer d\u00f6k\u00fck. kendi i\u00e7imde konu\u015fmaktan, d\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131na pay kalm\u0131yor.\u00a0imkan var da mecal kalmad\u0131 sanki&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">nas\u0131l g\u00fczel \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum bazen; s\u00fcs \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi koklar gibi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>bir an\u0131n i\u00e7inde kalmak ne kadar s\u00fcrer ? i\u00e7ti\u011fin biran\u0131n \u015ferbet\u00e7i otuna kadar iliklerinde hissetmek ne g\u00fczel \u015fey. 4 dakikal\u0131k bir \u015fark\u0131da en sevdi\u011fin k\u0131s\u0131m ka\u00e7 saniye ? belki 30. dizgin etsem g\u00f6n\u00fcl at\u0131n; ge\u00e7er g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn yedi kat\u0131n. yalan d\u00fcnya maslahat\u0131n; k\u00e2h biter, k\u00e2h bitmez \u00e7ektim. biriktirdiklerim, yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131. \u00f6n g\u00f6r\u00fcm: \u00e7ok fazla ya\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131z. azmetmedim, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":197,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-66","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/66","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=66"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/66\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":278,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/66\/revisions\/278"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=66"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=66"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ondertaskaya.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=66"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}